I mentioned to her this essay, and she said she carries it with her every day, and told me that there is now a 2nd part that someone has added to it. So, of course, I googled it. I felt as if someone had reached inside of my head and plucked the thoughts right out of it to write this. It was amazing to me how much someone who had never even met me could sum up my feelings, my life, in such a few, short paragraphs.
To sum it up, it parallels parenting of a special needs child with a planned dream vacation. Your whole life (your pregnancy) you have planned this dream trip to Italy (said trip being raising your child). Then, when your plane lands, and you think you're in Italy, all of a sudden they announce you have landed in Holland (Holland representing the parenting journey of a child with special needs), where you will stay. And it is not at all what you planned. But when you stop and look around, you realize the beauty there.
" "Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
The 2nd part discusses, as time passes, how the author has come to accept Holland as home. I would never change my home in Holland for anything in the world. I have met some of the most amazing people in my life because of this journey. Relationships that I could never replace. Relationships that I hope are as beneficial to the others as they are to me. I never envisioned my days to be full of Aquaphor, and hours of bathing and lotioning, and multiple doctors appointments, and physical therapy sessions. But I also, never could have envisioned, how much I would love this little person that depends on me.
|2 of my travel guides through my own, personal, Holland|